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Mon, 31 Mar 2008 01:13:44 GMT

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 01:11:04 GMT

the internet is boring today

things are moving rather slowly

i guess it's just one of those days

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 01:10:33 GMT

So I have this family thing tomorrow that I rather not go to b/c it's going to be awkard and boring, etc. and I have to read this book for history and study for Bio and see Jason. I chose to do my work tonight instead of going out and doing stuff.

I've been sick most of the week, and I've only seen one person. It sucks when everyone's spring break is before (and after!) yours. Oh well.

Ugh, SO NOT EXCITED for tomorrow. I dread going to family things.

So that's what has been up with me lately. Spring break needs to be longer.

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 01:09:56 GMT

I don't know why so many people take up Psych as a major. I have such a whack-ass schedule for Fall 2008:

Psych 40 (statistics, which I'm kinda pissed about since I could've taken that this semester if I had known I wouldn't make the PA program this year :[ )

Psych 89 (psychology of health and behavioral medicine- the only health/science related psych remotely associated w/ the pre-PA part of my major)

Eng 168 (Caribbean literature stuffs, lol. it was this or anthropology. i hate both, but i know i'm good in english, so at least it'll bring up my GPA)

RTVF 10 (intro to film/tv stuff, which looks really interesting, but it's from 3:50-7:50 on Thursdays =/ that's going to be fun, i can tell)

I'm planning on talking to my advisor again b/c even though I'm retaking my organic/biochemistry class in the summer, I don't know if that will be enough to raise up my GPA in the sciences, which is only a 2.5 something. I don't know what exactly I need for the sciences (prob 2.8 or 3.0), but I'm going to ask her if I can retake another science class that I previously took in freshman year instead of one of the courses above. I'm pretty confident that I'll be bringing up my cumulative GPA this semester, though. I've been doing pretty well. There's just 2 midterms I need to study for that are TOMORROW. Yikes.

Psych sucks, because really, I don't need to be taking any of these classes. The major just includes most of the credits I've already got, and it's something to pass the time. By the end of this semester, and including this summer, I'll have all my requirements done for the program. So... yeah. I rather spend my time taking classes that I need and can do better in, instead of something ridiculous as Caribbean literature. Le sigh.

I need to study.

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 01:09:34 GMT

http://community.livejournal.com/ohnotheydidnt/21151605.html

http://community.livejournal.com/ohnotheydidnt/21135651.html

** i'd watch that video at your own risk. it freaked me out :(

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 01:08:18 GMT

So I am going into the city tomorrow to get my eyebrows and whatnot waxed. This means another weekend spent with the family, or at least another Saturday. I need to be back here Sunday because I've got things to do, like start writing my history paper and start studying for my bio lab exam.

Instead of reading for history, I chose to spend the night decorating my room even more, which is more for my amusement than anything else since very few people actually visit. Actually, the only people who have are Bryan and Stephanie, who's a commuter.

I talked to the secretary of the PA program today (technically yesterday.) It's now official that the reason I was rejected was because of my sub-par GPA. It sucks, instead of getting out of here in 2 years, it might be another 4 (assuming I get accepted the second time around.)

The good thing about having no classes on Friday is having no classes on Friday, but the bad thing about having no classes on Friday is that I get lonely. I could go on about this, but I'd rather not. When it all comes down to it, I give up on socialization and chalk it up to not having the motivation to apply myself in those types of situations. It's a problem.

Speaking of no motivation, I haven't updated Flickr in a zillion years. Which is like a month. I haven't abandoned taking pictures of myself because I am admittedly self-absorbed and that's what I like to do, I just haven't bothered uploading them on there. I can't seem to make that happen lately. Another issue that needs to be taken care of.

Assuming things work out, I may be the only 19 year old with my aunt going to see the Hannah Montana 3D movie. How pathetic is that? She said she wants to go, but I think she just feels bad for me since no one else would want to go with me.

I wonder if God has made me ridiculously socially retarded for a reason. I really do think he has a plan for me later on. I think choosing to believe in God is one of the best decisions I've ever made in life, 'cause I can't even imagine how much more self-loathing I could be if I took the secularist, humanistic approach. Where did I go wrong? Pshht. It'd haunt me every night.

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 01:07:32 GMT

I had a dream last night. Kevin Jonas and this girl I know from Swing were building sand castles on the beach and were teaching me how to. I think it must've rained the night before because the sand was still damp and dark colored. Yeah.

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 01:07:04 GMT

i'm not really sure why i'm posting this but yeah.

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 01:05:37 GMT

there are two floor meetings tonight? One at 8:30 and one at 9? Like, I don't get it. Why couldn't they have made it Tuesday? Monday nights are the only good nights for TV - A Raisin in the Sun is on at 8 and Jon and Kate +8 is on at 9! Seriously, I live for that show and it goes on ONCE a week.

Fuckers. Humph!

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 01:05:10 GMT

I don't really know, LJ.

I have a 9 page paper due tomorrow.
Still obsessed with the Jonas Brothers.
I'm beginning to like Kevin more and more.
Nick is still the best, and I like Joe less.
Although he is friggin' hilarious.
That's not a complete sentence.

Video of the day: http://zigvid.com/video_player.php?v=2400

and yeah.

I'm developing thunder thighs, btw. Just thought you should know.

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 01:04:28 GMT

now for my 6th (?) jonas dream:

i suppose this was after the Grammys, and i was flying back to L.A. or somewhere, and after my trip, i decided to get something to eat in the airport. i had to go through all this security stuff/stairs/revolving doors first, and while i'm going through that, i see a very young nick jonas, so i'm "OMG hay nick!" and he sees me, even though he didn't have any idea who I was, but was like "want me to wait for you on the other side?" and i mouth "yes!" so he does. he was wearing a white shirt with a green sweater vest-thingy and a green hat, lol. so when i meet him, we go upstairs to where joe and these two girls (and kevin, i guess) were sitting. it was my first time meeting joe, and i think he was ignoring me because these two other women were nagging him and kept saying "Mandy!" or "Mia!" or some name that began with M. He had the short hair, and was wearing a red t-shirt, green vest, and jeans. It could have Meredith for all I know because a creepy, much older version of a girl I used to know in high school and her mom came up to me and started talking. I was getting annoyed because all I wanted to ask Joe was "do you know that you look like Ian Somehalder?" but could only get out "doyouknowyoulooklikeIan" repeatedly and thus, he never acknowledged me. I woke up rather suddenly at this point. It's important to know I woke up twice: once at 6 am and then at 7:05 am. Both times are significant 'coz "6 Minutes" and "7:05" are the names of two old school JB songs. So there.

the dream i had just now consisted of a) my dad and i watching a late night movie, b) hanging out with these two semi-famous british women and one gay guy at my house, and c) their alcohol somehow spilling out into a parking garage where the gas tank was open (?) and the car blowing up and me ducking and ending up at my house with my dad smiling at myself in the mirror with my hair cut into a very boyish look. I was also wearing all denim. I have no idea where this all came from.

Good night everyone. I have to prepare myself for dissecting a cat at 8 am. :(

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 01:02:44 GMT

I have been a hermit all day, except for when I took a shower. Ew to that.

I have been up for 12 hours and 11 minutes. Fascinating, I know.

What have you all been doing all day? Tomorrow I might go see Enchanted here at teh Hof. That's really all I've got planned. I've been too lazy to call anyone else.

And that's all I've got for now.

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 01:02:23 GMT

things I just gotta get out:

1. Nick Jonas will be mine one day.

2. I hate my English and History classes. I never thought I'd say that, but yeah. I have an oral report and a three pg paper due Thursday respectively. I think I'll be up all night doing the paper, as well as my bio and stat homework.

um.

yeah, the books we're reading are heavier reads than I am willing to spare my time for. I am so sick of Gulliver's Travels. I didn't like it in high school and I sure as hell don't like it now.

3. I DK, I guess I'm using the JoBros as an escape for all this recent madness.

Ugh, I just don't want to do anything at all.

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 01:01:51 GMT

^^ See that quote up there? Eff you, Joe Jonas, even though I love yo' crazy ass.

I didn't make the Physician Assistant's program. It's not surprising, but God kinda failed me on this one. I was hoping by some miracle I'd get in and get outta here in two years, but nahhh.

It's good to know I'm not the only one not getting in this year- after all, they DO only accept 20 Hofstra students.

I do feel sad, but right now I'm more in a, "K, what do we do next?" mode. The solution isn't to "die trying." I am going to set up an appointment with my advisor, then make another appointment with the head of the PA program to see what exactly disqualified me this year. After that, I'm going to have to call my hospital that I volunteered for and the doctor who I've worked under a couple of times. (I see you snickering. Stop that.)

So my future is blurry at the moment. Hopefully by next week I will have figured out where I'm going again. The daughter of a friend my aunt's friend had majored in biology for four years in college before applying to the program. Of course, she got in on her first try, but still. If I have go that route, well, then, bring it on, b*tch. I hope I don't have to change my major in biology, though. That's illogical, and I can't have that.

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 01:00:47 GMT

so i watched lost last night... since i haven't been keeping up, i had no idea what the heck was going on, lol. i'm not sure why sawyer's being nice (which i suppose is the most WTF moment) and everyone hates locke and hurley's in a mental institution...

anyway, i randomly decided that i want to meet matthew fox. i thought he was kind of a douche in what i've seen the first season, and he still seems that way, but there's something i still like about him.

gosh, i'm so tired right now.

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 00:59:08 GMT

hi friends, i am back at hofstra. things aren't much different here from what they were at home: waste away the day watching lost episodes and going on the internet and listening to music. my room is different though: i have a single. it's decorated similar to an 8 year old's room, but i like it. i was woken today 7:24 am by a fire alarm. i didn't get much sleep during the night, so it wasn't too bad. however, i thought i was going to throw up shortly after coming back to my room (walking up eleven flights of stairs without stopping and with little to no energy will do that to you.) i had a 4 hour dream after that, which included my roommate from freshman year moving into my single room.

a couple of nights ago, i had a dream about miley cyrus and some girls in my grade (from high school.) me and miley had to walk through this maze type of thing which was really pretty, and these disney interviewers at the end were supposed to surprise her. emily osment was with us, too. in the dream, i also encountered two girls from my grade. it was really light out, the streets were really busy, and it looked like we were in disneyland or something. at one point, one girl was following me, and she fell, and i had to carry her. it was nice to care for someone.

my aunt had to come to hofstra today because she thought she needed to add more money on my card for food... turns out i already had $495 on there for food and stuff. she also brought my backpack, which i forgot. i thought it was going to be a nice, warm visit from her until she started pushing sorority stuff on me. sure, i'd like more friends who are girls and stuff and it'd be cool to get out more, but (most) sorority girls suck major cock. yes. my aunt doesn't understand how much cock they suck at hofstra. they drink. they smoke. they dance slutaciously. it's fun to watch, but not to be associated with. they wouldn't like me and i wouldn't like them. i kind of walked away on my aunt in the middle of the student center because she doesn't get it. my family's been trying to call me back, i haven't answered my phone. i really don't like how she's trying to control what i do and don't do here. i always thought i worked better alone, though i do get lonely at times.

i had a floor meeting tonight though, and the girls seem really nice so far. so there's that, i guess. i think i need to find people who like video games and stuff. i dk.

i have three classes tomorrow. i can't believe i like this guy.

i haven't fell for someone this hard in a long time... and i hate how i'm writing about it like i'm in middle school, but yeah. it's just so soon after my break up.

i think i'm going to go to bed early tonight, since i have to put myself on a regular sleep schedule again. i went to bed 2:30 am and woke up 11:30 am, but that's only b/c i had class at 12:50 pm, and that was my only class. i'm going to try for 12:30 am... I have to wake up 8:30 am the latest for a class at 9:35 am. eek.

i think that's it for now. hopefully tomorrow will be a better, more fun-filled day.

xoxo, you know you love me.

- dana

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 00:53:24 GMT

I just really hate ohnotheydidnt sometimes. Seriously, these people can be asses. I know a lot of people don't like her, think she has no talent, don't understand why she's famous, etc. but geez, actually thinking the story is just so freakin' hilarious because a lot of people want her DEAD and gone... I think people are really fucked up.

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 00:52:59 GMT

As much as I've tried to form an entry that will make sense, some things are better written down.

more dreams

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 00:52:31 GMT

My dreams usually come in two, unrelated parts. It's never enough to just have one. My mind is too good for that.

The first part dealt with me on an adventure! There was someone else involved, it was either Ally, or a younger boy. We needed to find this map, with these stones or something, and we had very limited time. I remember going on a train and hunting through a high school. There was a dark blue tent involved somewhere. Michelle Pfeiffer was the witch in my dream (dressed in Dumbledore's attire.) I'm sure the movie Stardust influenced that, even though I rented it but didn't get a chance to see it. She is gorgeous, by the way.

The second part of my dream dealt with none other than NICK JONAS AND A POOL. I can only blame ONTD for this, as usual, since someone posted pictures of the Jonas Brothers in bathing suits last night. Nick was wearing the same bathing suit as he was in the picture, which was already two sizes too small. For a 15 year old, he's very toned and muscular. I like that in a guy. I remember being really turned on (haha), and I think I swam over to him, and we were about to make out before I woke up. Damn. j

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 00:50:25 GMT

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